I'm sure a lot of you know by now, but I have been having quite a few physical problems lately. I'm not realy sure what is going on with my body right now. All I know is that I am ready for it to stop and to feel like a normal human being again. I have been having lightheadedness, shaking, nausea, heart palpations and cold sweats for about a week and a half now(and no I'm not pregnant, that was the first thing they wanted to check). I have been to the hospital twice, the doctor, had a 24 hr. heart monitor, and gone to see a cardiologist all in the last 9 days. And tomorrow I am going to have a stress test and ecocardiogram (sp?). The cardiologist just wants to make sure nothing is wrong with my heart, which of course I welcome and then we will have to go from there. The last two days have been pretty good. Last night was bad. It's like I have these 2 to 3 hour "attacks" where by body just starts doing some crazy things.
Ya know, all this has really made me wonder about people who go through physical pain for long periods of time. I have only been dealing with this for 10 days and I know people who have had to suffer a lot longer and more intensely than I have. It's hard.It's amazing how your health can play with your emotions and state of mind. Although this has been one of the hardest things I have had to deal with physically, this is also one of those times when I know that God is trying to teach me something. I know that He has a purpose for me to have to go through this trial in my life. I just know deep down inside that this circumstance will be used for His glory. I'm not so sure how right now, but I do know that He is in control, no matter what happens is life. I feel like in all the difficult circumstances that come my way in life, God brings me back to the same lesson: My life is for God!!! Every breath that I take, every step, every word, He will use for His glory, no matter what! So, I don't know what is going to happen tommorow, tonight, or even in the next hour, but I do know that God is in control of my life. My life is for Him!!!