The First of Many Firsts

Well, it was bound to happen at some point, right!?  It just seems like it came too quickly!  Clay started preschool today for the very FIRST time!  Now, I have to admit, I only signed him up for two days a week.  I wasn't ready for any more than that, although, I think he might be!  I was so nervous this morning, I mean, I think I was more nervous for his first day of school than I ever was for any of my own!  Maybe I'm crazy, or maybe I'm just a mom. Well, probably just a crazy mom!  But you know, you want to protect your kids and provide and always be there for them, make sure their ok, etc. etc. and believe me there are many etcs.!
 Clay was SO EXCITED!  He talked about it a lot.  We even went to Target to buy new "school shoes" yesterday.  Of course he picked the Spiderman ones that light up!  I mean, what 3 year old boy wouldn't?!  And last night as I'm putting him to bed, I find the new shoes on the floor RIGHT next to his bed!    I guess he wanted to be ready!  Too cute!  He was up til at least 10pm coming out of his room asking for things.  I think he was too excited to sleep.  I remember that as a kid.  Who am I kidding, I'm still like that ;)  When I woke this morning, realizing I wasn't being woken up by our 3 year old boy, I knew he stayed up a little too late.  Hoping I wouldn't have to actually wake him to go to school, he was up a couple minutes later! He didn't eat too much for breakfast, stating "well, mom there is snack time at school!"
So, I wondered today, how is he doing? Is he making friends?  Is he missing me?  Did he cry at some point?  Is he being shy?  OH WHAT IS HE DOING?  I'm sure there is a reason why they don't have one of those cool windows where you can see them but they couldn't see you.  Moms would camp out there!  I know I would! Oh I wish!
Ok, I have to admit, I was a little giddy when it was time to go pick him up.  Who knew 3 hours could be so long?  I couldn't wait to hear all about snack time, craft time, play time, and anything and everything you could get out of a 3 year old boy.  The teacher said he " had a great day!"  And it sounded like it!  He told me he "didn't cry" and "we played with play doh." Other than that, there wasn't much more I could get out of him.
And so I sit here, reminded once again, that our children are in God's hand and not our's.  That there are so many questions I would loved answered and there are so many things I want to control, but the truth is, I will never know EXACTLY what happened during those 3 hours this morning (unless of course they decide to install one of those cool windows)!  I guess it's all apart of this whole "mom thing" happening to me, but I know there will be many other times in my life where I just have to trust God with the most precious gifts I could ever receive.  Ok, God, lesson learned, now can they install that window??!! :)